I feel really indifferent about this weekend, I lied to my parents about this weekend, and now going home on Saturday. I’m getting way too excited for Friday, I want to have a good feeling about it, but my guts telling me this is just gonna end with a lot of fucked up feelings, self loathing and disappointment. But fuck me it’s all I’ve been thinking about this week and I can’t turn back now
Why do pets alway seem find my room to dispose of their bodily fluids all over my carpet?
Went into work today and actually bartender today, memorizing all those ingredients actually payed off, I am the pimm’s cup master!!
Mutha fuckas had an open season to kill us
And people have the nerve to say “why are you still angry about something that happened so long ago?” I will make sure my children and grandchildren stay furious and angry that this country was built on the oppression and exploitation of people of color.
"Federal Nigger Hunting License: Season Opens January 1, Closes December 31."
It’s been a really long weekend and I’m glad it’s over
I really don’t understand how women are attracted to me, there really isn’t anything special about me, I’m below average hight, I’m not fat or anything just decent I guess, I don’t understand how some one can see me attractive, I’m person that blends in or the guys likes around but not really likes. This is really odd for me…
considering starting a series called “Community out of context”
This is the first time I’ve been out where I genuinely enjoy being with a person, not because of physical attraction ( it was there) just being able to talk to someone where no subject is off limits. I think I needed to actually go out with a person that doesn’t hold back the truth, that has something interesting to say. Where I’m not uncomfortable because of what they’re saying but because I haven’t experienced this more often. I like talking about sex, stupid things that’s gotten me In trouble, bad jokes what I value.
What I’ve taken from this evening has me realize that more people are like me when it come to sexual activity, I shouldn’t have to change myself. I realize my love life is far from over, however I need to expressing what I want. I’ve realize that I need to graduate, there are some many things passing me by, there are situations I would like to see myself in, I can’t fully do right now. I’m doing away with my feelings, they get me in trouble and scare the shit out of me.